i'm not a housewife

Pengubat Rindu

2012-02-14T20:14:00.003Z

It has been two weeks he left us..

Mummy & daddy miss everything about you..

Luckily you are not here when we are facing a difficult time..

Too much 'pancaroba kehidupan' we have to face..

Anyway, life must go on, we have to be strong..

Hopefully you will enjoy your new life..

Although we miss you so much, mummy pray to Allah that you won't miss us..

You are too small to have this feeling.. it is very very sick..

Ya Allah, please give me strength and show me the best way..

Counting days to see you..

When will we you see again?

Moment of Transition

2012-02-12T17:30:00.003Z

Struggle with studies after two failures..

Temporary off as a mother..

Busy at work without assistant..

Boss away for annual leave..

Husband being workaholic

House without joys..

Sedapnyer Apple

2011-05-02T21:26:00.004+01:00

Hari-hari Anish tengok mummy makan apple. Tapi daddy tak suka makan apple. If mummy paksa daddy makan apple, mesti daddy buat muka pelik macam muka mummy terpaksa makan ubat.

Macam manalah agaknya rasa apple ni kan??? Anish nak cuba juga...

Errrmmm..sekali cuba memang sedap..bersungguh-sunguh Anish makan. Habis jugalah satu biji epal.. Kalo tak caya, jom tengok macam mana Anish makan apple...

Sedap kan??? Nak sikit tak??

Boxing Day 2010

2010-12-30T20:10:00.013Z

Hello..
My name is Muhammad Danish Aniq
I was born on 7th December 2010
Actually, my brith date supposed to be on 26th December 2010
My Atuk (Melaka) said, I have to wait until 27th December, so we can celebrate our birthday together.

However, I decided to come out earlier because:
1. My mummy do not have to walk on ice to work while I was still inside her tummy - it was too dangerous for us
2. My mummy can take maternity leave earlier and have a rest at home
3. I can watch my daddy taking his exams
4. My daddy could be independant by taking care my mummy without any assistant from my grandparents.
5. The most important thing, I can follow my Atuk & Wan shopping at Oxford Street on the Boxing Day

On the Boxing Day, I am the youngest person on the Oxford Street..
Mummy and Daddy did not shop anything for me..
That day was my first day facing with too many people..

At Croydon train station before heading to Oxford Street

With Atuk & Daddy in the tube

We are at the Oxford Street

Danish & Mummy waiting at the Starbuck

The next day, Wan, Atuk & daddy went to Westfield for shopping again but I stayed at home with mummy.. So, I proved to them that I'm strong enough for shopping.. So, they brought me out at Croydon town centre for shopping.. but there was still nothing for me.. I am waiting for mama to come to London..I want to go shopping with mama at Portsmouth.. I want to play with abang farihin

Zaman Dolu-Dolu

2010-11-06T05:46:00.004Z

Actually, I'm trying to edit video for Afiq but macam kekontangan idea..
Cari punya cari, folder by folder, suddenly, I found this video..
Our wedding inviation video..

Rindu jugak mase zaman single-single dulu..
Zaman pegi holiday together..
Zaman naik flight every month - ulang alik Dublin & London / Nottingham
Zaman Acap yang tak terurus..
Zaman berwebcam..
Zaman merajuk & bill phone melambung tinggi..
Zaman kaya & pembaziran :)

Sekarang ni dah lain dah our rutin..
Next year akan lagi lain..
Time flies so fast..
Any, syukur alhamdulillah, dengan segala kurniaan Allah..
May tomorrow will be better than yesterday..
Amin..

Goodby Afiq

2010-11-06T05:20:00.004Z

First of all, sorry to Hasbe
This video was recorded for Afiq's farewell and tak sempat nak edit lagi..
Hasbe, nnt tolong edit, and post edited version to us OK :)

When Midnight Without Him..

2010-10-28T03:55:00.004+01:00

It almost 4.00 a.m.
I was awake since 2.00 a.m.
Ntah kenapa tak boleh tido.. Esok kat office sure letih..

Normally, every night, Mast akan bangun for a cup of milo and two pieces of biscuit..
Who will make it for me? Obviously Acap..
But this week, Acap dah tido macam normal people..
So, every night Mast kelaparan and keseorangan.. Minum milo kotak jerr sorang-sorang..
(Aku merinduimu.. ting tong..hehe)

Dah lama rasanya tak update blog, and baca blog orang..
Facebook pun sometimes jerr.. Sekarang ni seriously takde mood untuk beralam maya..
Too much things to do and too much things to think..
Too much pressure with current environment..
Especially masalah rumahtangga..
Not my rumahtangga but our rumahtangga..
Lepas satu, satu masalah yg timbul..
Rasanya ramai yang dah tahu & isu ni dah tersebar luas - UK & Malaysia
Ni semuanya berpunca dari dunia alam maya ni lah..
Ntah mane hilangnya rasionalism & professionalism..
Masing-masing ikut emosi..
Rasa tak sabar sangat nak hidup dalam rumahtangga sendiri..

Ni tak termasuk lagi health problem..
Dulu, people I hate and scare the most was doctor gigi..
Rasa nak tercabut jantung bila nampak van doctor gigi datang kat sekolah..
Now, I hate to see doctors and consultants.. Ade je masalah bagi diorang eventhough I don't have any problem..
Tak boleh ke enjoy the life and make the life easy..

Ntah ape lah yang bebel tengah-tengah malam ni..
Actually Mast lapar, boring & tak boleh tido..
Sepatutnya bangun buat tahajud mengadu pada Allah, tapi mast membebel sorang-sorang..
OK, muhasabah diri & mari solat subuh..

-End-

Rambutan oh Rambutan

2010-08-31T22:19:00.007+01:00

Hari tu lepas tengok gambar K.Imah & Mak Kenit pegi dusun Mak Lang, macam teringin sangat nak makan rambutan dengan mangga kat dusun tu.. Two years ago, Mast pegi petik sendiri & panjat pokok sampai ke pucuk.. this year tengok gambar je lah..

Mast memang suka sangat makan rambutan muda.. Dulu nenek selalu marah coz tak sempat nak tunggu buah tu masak.. Arwah nenek busu rajin gaitkan rambutan utk ktorg..

Last week, mase Acap pegi Bayswater, Mast kirim beli rambutan dengan betik..biasanya makan yang dalam tin je.. Bila dia bawa balik, terkejut Ya Rabbi Mast tengok harga dia.. Nak makan pun telan air liur..macam makan duit jerr.. Terkejut tak harga rambutan utk 6 biji is GBP2.40???? Nak dekat RM25 kat Malaysia.. kat Malaysia, seikat pun boleh dapat RM5 jer. Kalo pokok belakang rumah tu, tak pandang langsung, sampai hitam buah atas pokok..

Rambutan from Thailand = GBP2.40

Harga betik kat sini pun boleh tahan gak.. satu biji nak dekat GBP7.00.. melampau betul!!!.. Bila Mast bagi tau mak, mak gelak je.. Mak cakap, kat belakang rumah, betik terbiar jerr.. burung jer yang makan..

Tak tahu lah betik ni from mane?? Knape lah mahal sangat?? Ade tak kat Malaysia sebiji betik harga almost RM30??

Lepas ni Mast nak start bercucuk tanamlah kat sini.. Tapi bila balik Malaysia nnt, confirm, tak pandang pun betik dgn rambutan..Kat sini ni tekak ni mengada2..

Gardening 2011 @ GSR

2010-08-28T23:27:00.010+01:00

Entry ni khas untuk Rapek.. confirm rindu zaman ni kan?
Last year 3 ladies with a man but this year 6 men with a lady..
Last year Rapek mando, this year, Mast yang jadi mando & camerawoman..

This time Khaliz join and ade 4 pekerja import..
Before story about this year activity, nak flash back activity last year dulu..

Last year punya hutan takde lah teruk macam this year..

Qina tukang sape, Rapek cabut pokok yang besar2, Mast & Zakiah tolong masukkan rumput2 dlm plastik..Ingat lagi, mase ni jumpa banyak siput.. gelliiii

Lepas abis keje, duduk rehat sambil minum tea & makan keropok ikan..

Then, praktis main golf..hehehe..kelakar lah... ehh, macam sama lah...

This year, before start gardening, the guys ni poyo main golf jugak lah.. Khaliz & Airil pegi New Addington, Mast & Acap pegi Wing Yip beli groceries.

Keje-keje started from this area.. Mr & Mrs Malik supply banyak sangat equipments.. barang kita yang dulu semua dah ditimpa rumput & hutan belantara..

Macam-macam khazanah jumpa.. Pagar rumah ni pun dah macam nak roboh kena panjat lalang..

Wow, Dr Airil pun joint skali.. tengoklah ape yg die pakai..baju Lacoste, kasut Bally, belt Fendi, wallet confirm LV.. takpelah, yg penting semangat buat keje...

Khaliz leads the guests buat keje.. Mast tengok Apis lagi banyak diri tegak macam tu dari buat keje since start tadi..hehehe..curi tulang ke??

Dah nampak terang kat area tu.. this time hard work jugak lah coz banyak duri & pokok besar2..

Tapi tak buang dalam plastik pun..Mr Malik cakap, bakar je.. diorang ni bukan bakar rumput tapi bakar surat khabar jer..minyak dah abis satu botol tapi api tak nyala jugak.. semuanya fail!!

Selesai sudah activity menebas belakang rumah.. this time tak boleh lah nak menjamu selera coz dalam bulan Ramadhan.. jap lagi boleh buka puasa.. arini Qina yang masak..

Alaa...cianyerrr..kaki Acapku luka terkena duri.. luka tak sampai 1cm, tapi kecoh je lebih...manja sangat...

Ok, inilah supervisor ari ni... tak buat keje pun, sekadar menyibukkan & menceriakan suasana.. Next year tak tahu lagi.. may be takde kot aktiviti macam ni.. Mast& Acap plan nak pindah rumah..Zakiah nak cari rumah.. Tak tau la kalo Khaliz nak stay dengan new comers (kalo ade lah).. Nanti dah takde family GSR..

Weekend Activities

2010-08-24T19:00:00.011+01:00

Dah lame tak update blog.. Nak kata busy, takde la busy sgt.. tapi memang takde mood nak beralam maya ni.. Sorry la to those yang message kat facebook or email.. Bukan sombong taknak reply tapi malas yang teramat.. Sekarang ni Mast banyk abis kan masa catch up tgh drama series kat website TV3.. Epilog Syurga Cinta, best gak..hehehe...

Just nak update activities weekend with the ONE and ONLY my best friend.. sape lagi kalo tak Mr Acap tersayang.. Nanti kalo boring-boring or dah balik Malaysia nnt boleh baca balik..

1. Brighton

Mase ni kami pergi berdua je. Housemate yang lain tgh busy exam, kalo ajak pun confirm taknak. Lagi pun tak plan pun nak pegi. Train ticket pun beli on that day. GBP8.60 per person for return ticket. Journey lebih kurang 30 minutes from East Croydon Station.

Biasalah, kalo pergi berdua, gambar kena ambil sendirilah - tembamnyerr pipi Mast..

Mast lebih suka bergambar.. Tapi mase ni Mast dah nampak gemuk sikit kot..baby dalam perut pun ikut perangai ni.. bila scan asyik nak pandang camera je..siap lambai2 lagi..hehe

Tapi Acap perangai dia memang macam ni lah..Asyik makan jer..atas batu pun sepat tido..nak jadi mat saleh lah konon tu..nasib baik tak kena pijak dengan budak2 yg main kejar2...

Inilah pantai Brighton..tak cantik macam pantai kat Msia.. Lagi cantik Pantai Sungai Tuang kat Melaka yang banyak najis babi.. Pantai berbatu je, untuk buat refleksologi boleh lah.. Environment kat sana best jugak.. Pastu bila dah terasa agak tanned, we all lepak kat shopping mall. Tak ingat lah nama mall tu.

2. Farewell K.Nita @ K Eva's house

K.Nita dah nak balik Msia for good, so we all buat potluck kat rumah K.Eva. Khaliz tak join coz Monday tu dia ade exam. Banyak jugak lah makanan tapi mase tu Mast rasa makan tak kenyang. Ade roti john, ayam percik, nasi ayam, bihun goreng, potato salad, karipap, & macam-macam lah..

We all buat dadih strawbery & laici je mase tu, speciality Zakiah. tapi dapat sambutan jugak lah.. even simple, tapi lain dari yang lain tau..sedap & cantik..hehe

Bila join dengan family-family ni, banyak la budak2.. Ni gambar dengam Qistina, Herry, & Mika..cute-cute budak2 ni.. paling geram kat Qistina yang tembam tu..makan non-stop.

Inilah para wanita yang ade mase hari tu..Nak kenalkan pun ade yang tak ingat name. Tapi best sangat borak dengan K.Diana (yg paling skirt).. mulut bising macam K.Ina. semangat betul bercerita..

3. Sealife, London

Weekend tu (14/08/10) orang-orang Dublin turun Croydon, jalan-jalan cari makan.. Tengok diorang memborong makanan pun boleh jadi kenyang. The next day jalan-jalan kat London dengan Aizah, Kirk & Yusniza (baru je kenal ari tu).

Sempat jugak nak bergambar depan London Eye ni. Dulu ade gak gambar 2 orang kat sini before kahwin (3 years ago) - perut Mast dah nampak dah.

Ticket is GBP18.00 per person, but we got 2 for 1 and another free ticket. Nasib baiklah free, kalo tak rugi je.. tengoklah apa yang jadi jap lagi, tak berbaloi beratur panjang2 masa nak masuk. Overall, aquaria kat Msia dua kali lagi best kot.

Ikan-ikan sama je kot kat semua tempat. Bila tengok ikan pari ni rasa geram sangat. Kan best kalo boleh tangkap sekor buat pari bakar dgn air asam & masak asam pedas (letak lada hitam sikit & daun kesum).. sedapnyerrr.. terasa kecur air liur nak makan lauk yang best-best & ikan fresh. Kat sini ari-ari makan ayam jer.. boring!!

Jeng jeng jeng..tengoklah gambar Mast sebelum & selepas masuk.. inilah yang terjadi.. tak sampai separuh tour dalam akuarium tu, Mast dengan Aiza dah buat hal.. Both of tiba-tiba rasa mabuk yang teramat sangat.. First time Mast rasa macam tu since Mast pregnant.. tambah lagi dgn suara budak2 yg berlari-lari.. Mummy, pish pish!!! Masa tu Mast rasa nak campak je semua budak2 bagi jerung makan..dahsyat tak?? Memang rasa kaki tak jejak bumi & mata tak boleh buka langsung... kat tepi tu jugak Mast duduk tak hiraukan orang lain.

Memang tak enjoy la hari tu... Tapi mase nak pegi tu, Mast yang paling happy sgt & beriya-iya nak masuk.. kesian suami-suami kami, tak sempat nak tengok ikan, terpaksalah ikut kerenah isteri masing-masing

Next entry, Mast update lagi weekend activities, banyak gambar yang upload lagi. Lepas ni nak update blog Hj Jani lak. Mast ade entry khas buat Rapek gak nanti..

Gigi & Wana

2010-07-21T21:21:00.012+01:00

Guest: Gigi & Wana
From: Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia
Period: July 2010 (tak ingat exact date)

Seperti biasa, kalo ade orang datang cuti dari Malaysia, Acap akan jadi pemandu pelancong..
Kalo datang London ni, mane lagi tempat nak pegi? Macam biasalah, London Eye, Parlimet, Tower Bridge, Buckingham Palace, Madame Tussaud, Emirates, shopping kat Oxford st.

Tapi Gigi ni pelik sikit, sangatlah tak independent.. Kalo dia datang sekali lagi, Mast rasa confirm tak lepas nak jalan sendiri. Hari-hari Acap kena teman. Kalo Acap tak kuar, dia pun tak kuar lah.
Nak jalan sendiri kat Croydon pun takut..hehehe
Mast tak banyak sangat spent mase dengan diorang..coz keje.. mase weekend je bawa diorang pegi Portsmouth, Purley Way & carboot (semangat betul diorang shopping kat carboot - kalo boleh nak sewa lori angkut barang). Plan asalnya lain. tapi ade sebab2 yg menghalang, so kena tukar plan.

Best jugak la shopping kat Portsmouth.. Mast takde la shopping banyak; 7 pairs shoes (Clarks) & 1 pair sandal (Hush Puppies), 5 tops & 1 pant (Next), 3 pairs kids shirt (GAP), 1 sunglass (Calvin Klien), 1 shawl & bracelet (Assesorize).. tak beli handbag pun :( tengah tunggu bag channel dari Acap..haha

Train ticket pun murah jer, 11pound per person, lebih murah dari guna rail card coz kitaorang beli group ticket. Ape lagi nak cite hah? Takde idea lah..Layan je lah gambar-gambar ni..

Kat Pintu masuk..tapi gambar ni ktorang ambik mase nak balik..still ramai orang event dah kul 7.00p.m.

Muka Acap yang masam coz tengah panas..lagi panas bila sunglass Rayban dia baru hilang..cian dierr..takpe, nanti Mast beli yang baru k..

Mast yang sentiasa happy bila dapat ice-cream & shopping :) The easiest way to make me smile..hehe

Lunch makan bihun goreng jer..sanwiches dah habis waktu dalam train..selalunya bila keluar confirm bawa bekal..tak makan yang best-best pun..nak saving..hehehe

Makan ice-cream pun share..sharing, caring, loving and the most important, saving..hehe

Best gak lah kat sini..banyak activities lain yang menarik selain shopping.. Sekrang ni Gigi & Acap tengah main lumba kapal.. tapi dua-dua punya kapal tak gerak.. membazir 2pound jerr..

Dah tak larat nak shopping lagi..sudah keletihan.. berehat sebentar dengan Nachos & drink yang tak ingat name dia (but buy 1 free 1) - memang saving gile-gile mase ni

Lupa lak nak kenalkan..inilah Wana & Gigi..mase ni Wana dah 6 bulan..banyak gak lah barang baby yang diorang borong..

Yang ni, loving couple yang sangat comot..pakai selipar jepun RM2 je..

Masa ni dah nak balik..dah dekat pukul 8.00p.m. tapi hari masih terang lagi..

Bila dah dapat sunglass baru, abangku senyum tak putus-putus. Mula-mula jual mahal, taknak beli apa-apa..Nak cari spec yang sama gak.. Nasib baik dapat yang berkenan dihati..hati pun senang

OK, dah abis cerita..nanti sambung cerita lain lak..

Utilising my single life..

2010-07-21T20:53:00.004+01:00

Ari ni single lagi..
Semalam single..
Esok akan single..
Friday pun single gak..
Saturday dah tak single..hehehe

Waktu single macam ni lah mast akan bergiat aktif di alam maya..
Mase ni lah nak reply email & clearkan inbox..
Mase ni lah nak baca blog orang (sape-sape je)..
Yang paling best, waktu ni lah shopping sakan..
Website wajib, ebay & amazon..
Jap lagi nak tengok Dorothy Perkins..

Tadi Mast baca blog Zaidah, firasat garis tapak tangan..
Bukan main semangat & bersungguh-sungguh baca sambil menilik tapak tangan sendiri..
Seronok & terleka kejap..
Pastu ntah macam mane Mast boleh terbaca blog Lya..
Sedih sangat.. tersesak-esak gak lah Mast nangis..
Nasib baik Acap takde..
Kalo tak, confirm Mast kena gelak & kena sakat dengan dia..

Kalo Acap ada, or Acap dah celik mata, dia memang tak bagi Mast chance duduk aman..
Ada je benda yang dia buat and suka kaco Mast..
Mase tu, mulalah Mast jerit-jerit tak tahan kena kaco..
Kadang-kadang sampai boleh nangis..
Tapi bila Acap takde ari-ari macam ni rindu yang teramat lak..

Especially bila tiba-tiba kaki Mast kebas..
Terpaksalah tanggung sendiri..
Biasanya ade orang tolong tolak kaki and paksa mast makan ubat..
Tapi skrg ni boleh skip makan ubat..yeye..

Jap lagi Mast nak update pasal cerita Gigi & Wana..
Dah lama tak update cite guest yang berkunjung & bermukim di GSR ni..
Rapek pun minta Mast update cite & gambar terbaru GSR..
Kalo ade mood, Mast update khas untuk Rapek..
Sekarang ni tengah ade krisis & perang saudara sikit..
Tunggu aman dulu..

TUNGGUUU!!! hehehe

Still Can't Believe It....

2010-07-10T10:49:00.004+01:00

Masih terbayang-bayang lagi what I have witnessed last night...
Jantung still dup dap kencang ketakutan..
Lutut masih rase menggigil..
Tido malam pun termimpi-mimpi..
Sangat menakutkan..
Ingatkan dalam TV / movie je ade benda macam tu...
Kenapalah manusia ni tak bertamadun..
Tak layak UK dikategorikan sebagai develop county kalo rakyat sendiri still tak bertamadun..

Last night,while I was sleeping, around 12a.m. I was awake by a very loud sounds outside my front door..
Something like fireworks, gun shoots, cars engine and males' voice running outside..
Sambil menahan kesakitan kepala yang berdenyut-denyut, I peeped out from the window..

Believe it, what I saw???
A group of white males were attacking / banging / breaking Mr Malik's car..
Another group (around 3 people) running towards our house and banging my next door neighbour front door..
Abis pecah semua.. cermin kereta depan/belakang/kiri/kanan, semua pecah..
Siap simbah acid lagi..

Ape yang paling scary, they saw me looked at them from upstairs..and shout at me..
Khaliz went out to see what happened and noticed that they already in front of our house with a stick..
He tried to escape and Acap felt down nearby the stairs..
I was shouting Acap's name from upsatirs and still not sure what was going on..
Its happened so fast..I think, they will come again and attack other houses..Macam serangan kat Afganistan!!

A few hours after this incident, Khaliz told Acap that another house in Greenside Road (nearby Tesco) was attacked. Tak tahu lah betul tak news dari Khaliz ni, semalam dia masuk rumah lambat. Mast tak bagi Acap keluar.. Takut..

A few weeks ago, Qina saw a car purposely hit another car in front of our house and run away..

Last month, around 3a.m. I saw a group of people and police chasing a man in front of our house. Mungkin kejar pencuri kot.. padan muka kena pukul..

And yang masih segar dalam ingatan, a few months ago (29th March 2010), rumah kami sendiri diserang pencuri..habis barang-barang kena kebas..dah lah kami tak berharta kat sini..

Crime rate kat sini sangat tinggi.. Nak ambil insurance pun mahal..no wonder la kalo jalan pegi office ade kereta yang pecah..kalo kes bunuh-bunuh / tembak-tembak & orang ni mati dah jadi perkara biasa..TAk tahu ape nak jadi..

Malam tadi, apa yang paling buat jantung Mast nak gugur, bila Mast bangun, Acap takde kat sebelah..Mast ingat Acap pun dah kena attack kat luar coz biasanya dalam kul 12 or sementara nak tunggu subuh, Acap akan pergi luar rumah (hirup udara yang tak berapa segar & merangsang process penghadaman..hehehe).. Alhamdulillah, semua dalam rumah ni selamat..

Bila bangun pagi, Mast notice ade benda yang kelakar.. Acap tido peluk kayu golf.. biasanya peluk Mast or Pooh.. hehehe..comel lah awak!

Hopefully kami semua akan sentiasa dilindungi.. Benda-benda yang jadi ni buat Mast tak sedap hati lah nak duduk sini... nak pindah pun tak tahu kat mane..

YA ALLAH, LINDUNGAILAH KAMI DARI PERKARA PERKARA JAHAT...
BERILAH KESELAMATAN KEPADA KAMI DI DUNIA DAN AKHIRAT...
PELIHARALAH KESEJAHTERAAN KAUM KELUARGA KAMI YANG BERADA JAUH DARI KAMI...
HANYA KEPDAMU KAMI BERSERAH..
AMIN YA RABBAL ALAMIN

Blog Review

2010-07-01T19:39:00.003+01:00

second day without him at home.. normally, when I came back from office, there is somebody waiting for me in the room with food..

today, i just had maggie while reviewing a few blogs randomly - tak kenal pun tapi just klik-klik je.. In summary, every person has his/her own style / preference / story. But most entries are typical.

- yang dah kawin lebih cenderung cerita pasal anak
- yang still student, ayat diorang agak ntah ape-ape (may be mast dah tua & tak faham their language)
- ade yang suka post news (copy & paste from other website) - banyak jugalah entries yang sama
- ade yang suka main masak-masak & pelbagai resepi
- ade yang sangat informative but definitely not from their own resources
- ade yang jual-jual
- ade yang cerita pasal agama - insaf gak bila baca
- ade yang suka gosip-gosip artis / politicians
- tak ramai pun yg cerita pasal market / ekonomi & education

Mast punya blog ade konsep ape? Tak de ape-ape pun. I will only write when I am alone or depends on my mood. Kalo marah & geram, I can write non-stop. I think, this is the best way to release it apart from shopping :)

In term of layouts and presentation, semua orang memang creative. Macam-macam ade. Tapi kadang-kadang macam semak & menyusahkan reader. Banyak sangat benda yang pop out. Kalo girls' blog, terlalu gurly and moms' blog too much kids' photos. But this is personal preference and they enjoy themselve. Tapi Mast paling tak suka blog yang ade lagu-lagu. Macam tak boleh fokus nak baca.

Mast punya blog takde ape-ape pun. I don't have many followers but I got families yang mengintai dibelakang tabir. I just want them know my story and life here - rindunya nak balik Malaysia.

Dalam banyak-banyak blog, Mast paling suka blog kak apid coz ade cerita awang tenits. At least terubat gak rindu. Nak tahu sape kak apid??? Look at the top right of this page...

OK time to stop writting. He's already home :)

Outstanding updates...

2010-06-25T18:45:00.003+01:00

Sebenarnya Mast berniat nak update activities sepanjang May & June tapi otak ni macam blank and Mast cari camera tak jumpa (sejak kes rumah masuk pencuri hari tu, sebelum keluar, mesti akan sorak barang2 yang berharga. tapi yang susahnya, bila nak pakai, cari tak jumpa2).

Last two months Mast busy dengan exam & classes. Lagipun kesihatan Mast agak tak memberangsangkan. Alhamdulillah, exam dah abis. Insya'Allah, result pun oklah.

Ingat lepas exam, bolehlah enjoy, kuar jalan-jalan masa weekend dengan Acap. Tapi Mast dah di request untuk work every Saturday and kalo boleh stay back in the evening. Hmmm..apa boleh buat, kerja je lah..dah sumber rezki kita.

Almost six months I got married..kejap je kan? Most people ask me hows married life? For me, nothing much different. I still have to cook, clean, work, study & etc. But in term of sharing life, we are still in the process of knowing and understand each other.

Even after 6 months, we did not have opportunity to enjoy our weekend together, did not go out for shopping, movies, dining & other social activities. Everyday and night, everybody lead his/her own way with pens, papers, books and calculators. Even waktu tido pun tak sama. Sorang tido siang, sorang tido malam. At the moment, we don't have life and too much pressure. For me, this situation will never end until July 2012 - ayoyoo, lame lagi tu...

I wish one day, we can book a holiday and have our second honeymoon. I not really enjoyed my first honeymoon coz I was sick, too much jelly fish & awan yang kabus..Sampai semalam Acap asyik gelakkan Mast pasal muntah hijau je..jahat!!!

Opps...terasyik layan perasaan pulak. Actually Mast nak update list to do & records for my guest.

1. Yong & Yop visit
2. Zaggy's family
3. Auntie Sabariah visit
4. Lunch at Flemmings
5. Visit to Hitesh's house
6. Acap's football match
7. UK Emergency Budget
8. Plans for Gigi & Wana visit
9. Azam visit
10. My baby - boy or girl???
11. lagi satu, pasal tag k.apid..actually Mast pun tak faham..tengoklah, kalo rajin..hehehe

Ade sape-sape yang nak vote nak update cite ape dulu??

p/s: even after 6 months I got married, I never seen my wedding photo album yet. Buat name je ade 4 cameraman..Kesian tak???

Gerammm!!!

2010-05-20T17:40:00.003+01:00

Mast tengah kat ofis ni..tapi rasa geram yang teramat sangat dengan si mulut tempayan tu..
Ingatkan perempuan je yang mulut temapayan, rupanya lelaki punya mulut lagi besar..
Tadi dah bergosip & meluahkan perasaan kat Zaggy.. Cerita Acap pun Mast dah dengar..
Melampau lah macam..bukan setakat nak jaga tepi kain orang..tapi sampai nak masuk dalam kain sekali.

Rasa macam nak pindah rumah sekarang juga. Nasib baik Mast exam, so focus marah tu boleh divert lah. Lagi satu, nasib baik dia tak tahu Mast bakal dapat baby. Kalo tahu, confirm asyik ketuk pintu bilik Mast je. Macam mana Mast melarikan diri, dia akan cuba juga dekati Mast. Kenapalah ade manusia macam ni?

Sape-sape yang tahu Mast dah pregnant, tolong jangan post apa-apa public comments kat facebook k..If not, my life will be miserable. Ari tu dah nangis kat Acap. Nanti ari-ari Mast nangis.

Banyak lagi Mast nak cerita ni. Tapi kalo nak tahu lebih lanjut, nnt kita calling-calling & bergosip. Tak baik cerita bayak-banyak pasal hal orang.

Ya Allah, berikanlah petunjuk kepadanya. Berilah kekuatan dan kesabaran kepadaku dan orang-orang sekelilingku untuk berhadapan dengan orang seperti ini. Amin.

dah tak tahan...

2010-05-07T19:47:00.005+01:00

Tensionnyerrrr.. since hari isnin mast tahan sakit..semunya sakit dan serba tak kena..nak study pun tak boleh..hari-hari balik keje sharp 5.30p.m. manager mast pun dah tanya kenapa mast balik awal. biasanya confirm pukul 6.30p.m. ada kat ofis lagi.

perut sakit sangat.. bila makan rasa sangat pedih and tak boleh makan banyak, mesti rasa macam nak muntah balik. kalo muntah pun, keluar angin & air jer. sakit trakea. perut lapar & pedih minta diisi tapi tak boleh masuk makanan. Ari-ari mast asyik minum milo jer. at least 5 mugs.

belakang pun sakit..tak boleh duduk lama sangat. rasa macam nak tercabut pinggang. tak tahulah sebab apa. mungkin pasal ulang alik naik bus pegi kelas minggu lepas. next week mast rasa macam nak naik train je. tapi mahal lah.

kepala pun sakit jugak..rasa bedenyut-denyut dan macam nak pecah. kadang-kadang rasa pening dan berpusing-pusing.

satu badan sakit. bila bangun tido, sakit dia Ya Rabbi tak boleh nak kata apa. tapi mast kena kuatkan semangat jugak lah nak pegi keje. mast tak tahan kalo asyik macam ni. dah tiga hari tak study. ari-ari mast tido awal. risau jugak, exam dah nak dekat ni. mast tak tahan la macam ni.

macam-macam ubat mast dah makan. bilik ni dah bau minyak angin. ari-ari sapu minyak angin. siang malam makan panadol. mast dah tak tahan. semalam pegi buat appointment nak jumpa doctor. tapi earliest date will be next wednesday. tak bagus betul NHS system kat sini. sabar dan tahan je lah.

tapi mast tak tahan. mast lapar. tiba-tiba rasa macam nak makan ikan duri masak asam tumis dengan lada hitam atau ikan pari masak asam tumis isi daun kesum. ikan terubuk pun jugak. rasa macam dah meleleh air liur. takpelah, tunggu setahun lagi kita makan. OKAY??

So, banyak-banyaklah bersabar dan kuatkan semangat.

Another Year & Happiness for Zaggy!!!

2010-05-02T10:56:00.006+01:00

Happy Birthday Zaggy!!!

Zakiah or also known as Zaggy by GSR, just celebrated her ??th birthday on 27th April 2010. But this year two of her sisters from Malaysia also joined us to celebrate the birthday party. As usual, every year & every birthday for GSR member, we just had a simple party at our kitchen and confirm ade present. Although it just a simple party, but we glad to be together and share all ups and downs moment together.

So, nak dedicate some wishes to Zakiah:-

May this year bring with it all the success and fulfillment your heart desires.
Wishing you all the great things in life, hope this day will bring you an extra share of all that makes you happiest
May all the wishes and dreams you dream today turn to reality - cepat-cepat cari boyfriend & kawin..hehehe (Hajar wishes supaya Angah cepat kahwin).

Eventhough you are getting older, but you still look younger & brighther & the most important, you're getting better and better.. kalo guna product Golden Horse Cosmetic, confirm Youth & Brightness Forever (sempat lagi nak promote Golden Horse..hehehe)

May your best years are still ahead of you. May each and every passing year bring you wisdom, peace and cheer. You'll always be forever young

Also, wishing the same to K.Rush who celebrated her ??th birthday on the same day with Zaggy. GSR miss MPC & can't wait to meet you again.

Also million congratulation to Zaggy & Khaliz who just got their ICAEW result on 30th April 2010. They passed Audit & Assurance paper with flying colours. Almost get prize winner award. Well Done!! They will celebrate their happiness with their family in May.

Further story will be updated later.. TUNGGGUUUU!!

Nasib Baik Menang...

2010-04-24T19:37:00.017+01:00

Hari ni ade match MU vs Spurs.
Acap semangat sangat nak tengok, sampai breakfast pun makan sikit.

Acap semangat search kat internet cari channel yg ade football.
20 minutes mencari, hasilnya tetap mengecewakan.
Tak guna ade TV besar tapi tak boleh nak tengok match.
Maklumlah, kami ni student, tak mampu nak subscribe SKY sport.
Nak tengok live kat studium lagi lah tak mampu.

OK, jom ikuti apa yang berlaku seterusnya....

Bila dah dapat satu channel, streaming sangat lah slow.
Mast asyik keluarkan perkatan yang sama jer.
'Dah lah tu syg, MOVE ON jer lah. Baik sambung study'
Tapi Acap masih tetap berusaha & sabar menanti.

Dugaan masih tidak berakhir. Tiba-tiba internet pulak disconnect. Kenalah dia repair connection. It took few minutes jugak lah.

Bila dah OK, sambung balik tengok match tadi tapi MU dah leading. Terlepas lagi tengok sape yang score tapi. Acap tak puas hati.
'Tapi takpe lah, penalti jer kan?? MOVE ON syg'

Nak ditambah bengang di dada, Spurs pulak score.
'Takpe lah, adat permainan, MOVE ON syg'

Finally....apa yang ditunggu-tunggu...

3 - 2 (MU; Giggs(2) & Nani(1) - Spurs; King(1)). OKlah, nasib baik menang. Kalo kalah, mood Acap pun akan tunggang terbalik (muncung dia boleh sangkut baju..hehe), Mast jugak yang susah. Lepas tu dia mengofferkan diri nak kemas bilik.

Thank you sayang.. Lepas ni Mast masak untuk awak. Tapi masak Maggie je lah (makanan wajib bila weekend).

Hensemnyerrrr Dierrrr

2010-04-16T19:04:00.005+01:00

Sorry K.Apid, Mast curi gambar-gambar budak-budak hensem ni. Rindu sgt kat diorang..Ari-ari mesti nak skype dengan kembar & tengok aksi diorang.. Dah lame tak tengak Farihin..Sekarang ni, semua dah besar & hensem.. Bila nak dapat baby girl pulak? But don't ask me this question k!!!

Sekarang ni Mast tengah cari website kat Malaysia yang boleh buat delivery untuk beli hadiah birthday diorang tapi macam tak jumpa website yang best..Any recommendation???

Kat sini memang banyak & best-best, tapi posting cost agak mahal & takde mase nak pegi post office..

Happy Birthday Along, Angah & Farihin.
Hughes & Kisses from M.Lang & P.Lang
Nanti M.Lang beli bearbear & car k.. I love you

Nottingham + London = Croydon

2010-04-14T20:04:00.013+01:00

Guest: Wawa, Manje, Shakir, Arif, Din & kawan Shakir
From: Nottingham & London
Period: 31/03/2010 until 08/04/2010

Inilah wajah-wajah baru yang bertandang dan bermastautin di teratak kami.

From left; Manja (Notts), Din (Notts), Arif (London), Shakir (London)

Wawa dengan Manja memang dah jadi pengunjung tetap kat rumah ni. Kalo sesat or salah naik bus lagi tak tahu la apa nak kata. Barang-barang Khaliz pun dah jadi barang Manja - macam kenal je topi dgn kaca mata hitam kamu...hehehe

Wawa & Manja

Tetamu yang datang dan menginap di rumah kami ni sebenar kawan atas kawan. Perkenalan bermula pada malam yang kita semua tak jadi tengok movie. Plan asal nak tenagok movie kat Westfield tapi fully booked. So, kita berpecah buat dua group. Acap, Mast, Qina & Zaggy dinner at Jom Makan (sorry to say, makanan kt sini sangat tak sedap. memalukan masakan melayu je) & had desert at Bayswater.

Another group, Wawa, Manja, Khaliz, Shakir, Rasyad, Arif & etc pegi bershisha at Bayswater juga. Then we met up kat situ. Tahu-tahu je, semua orang nak ikut kita balik.

Tahu tak kenape diorang nak tido rumah kita? Sebab nak main poker. Malam tu ntah pukul berapa diorang tido. Siang tu, dua orang balik dulu termasuk Shakir. Yang lain ikut pegi birthday party Qistina - sorry takde gambar bcoz semua camera kat rumah ni dah kena curi. Tapi sekarang ni Mast dah ade camera baru :)

Itulah kaki winner!! Cuba teka sape????

Diorang ni semua takde keje lain. Asyik makan, tido, poker, movie & bola. Mulut memang non-stop munching. Sampai kurma, biskut & kacang-kacang dalam living room tu pun diorang makan. Tapi takpe la, kalo tak, makanan tu tak terusik langsung.

Asyik buka peti sejuk cari makanan, juice & shisha punya flavour. Kalo takde makanan, order delivery. Acap jadi ketua kalo bab makan.

Antara menu yang kami sajikan untuk tetamu-tetamu kehormat ni adalah:-

Soto Ayam by Mast

Buttered Prawn by Khaliz tapi jadi macam tom yam

Carbonara - Khaliz's speciality

Beef Steak with creamy mushroom sauce - Whoever come to Croydon, must try this. but the price a bit expensive.

Apart from having fun in this house, di sinilah mereka berhadapan denagn kekecewaan apabila mereka beramai-ramai menyaksikan kekalahan pasukan favourite - Manchester United. Cuba lagi ye next year..hehehe

Rintitan daripada kekalahan tersebut (wow ayat skemanye), buat pertama kalinye GSR jadi sangat sunyi sepanjang mereka di sini. Rupa-rupanya masing-masing turut rebah di dalam kegebuaan duvet Khaliz.

Kat manelah Khaliz tido mase ni?? Tahu tak mase diorang nak tido, handphone Shakir jatuh masuk dalam teh tarik. hehehe

Kepada Wawa, Manja, Arif, Din, Shakir & friends, nanti datanglah lagi. Jangan tunggu jemputan dari kami. Tapi pandai-pandailah mengundang diri sendiri. Nanti semua mesti kena ambil gambar wajib - kat dapur. Kali ni takde gambar host langsung.

Summer ni bila dah abis exam, kita sama-sama potong rumput belakang rumah & buat BBQ. OK!!!

Kapten Taufik Marzuki a.k.a Marek

2010-04-11T09:18:00.012+01:00

Guest: Marek
From: Kuala Lumpur Malaysia
Period: 22nd March 2010 - 30th March 2010

Inilah Kapten Taufik Marzuki a.k.a Marek. Hensem tak? Ade sape-sape yang berminat? Dia masih available lagi. Tapi dia cakap, dia nak cari calon isteri yg jadi cikgu. Hehe..jangan marah ye Marek, sesekali saya nak promote anda.

Pilot ni datang nak bercuti kat UK tapi hidup dia sangat senang. Tak payah nak plan apa-apa. Kalo bab shopping, lagi lah tak boleh cakap, main bayar jer..Dia cuma bagi kad credit, Mast & Acap lah yang uruskan semua.

Initial plan, Acap plan nak pegi UK, Paris, Brusels & Amsterdam tapi Mast tak agree sebab high cost & he will be away from me for a longer period. So, Mast plan diorang jalan-jalan kt UK je & pegi Amterdam on the 28th March 2010.

Masa first night Marek datang, Mast masak nasi ayam, borak-borak, main PS3 for the final time (before kena curi) & tak keluar jalan-jalan pun.

Esok tu, sementara Acap pegi kelas, Marek jalan sorang-sorang di Kota London. Sepatutnye jalan dengan 'awek to be' tapi awek tu macam sombong je.

Lepas Acap abis kelas, diorang pegi Madame Tussauds, Tower Bridge, London Eye, etc & malam tu Khaliz join diorang kt Picadilly Circus.

The Next Day tour Arsenal Emirates Studium & Museum.
Other activities, pegi shopping kt Bicester Village (masa ni Mast ikut & beli dua kasut & satu handbag je). Pegi tengak football match (Arsenal vs Birmingham).
Rasenya diorang jalan-jalan kat Croydon City Centre cari Helmet jugak kot coz dalam phone Mast penuh dgn gambar-gambar helmets.

Before mereka bertolak pegi Amsterdam, Marek belanja Greensiders dinner. Kita makan kat Nur BBQ. Khaliz tak join coz dia dinner dengan Mr Malik. Tuan kedai tu suka Zaggy & offer us tea / coffee for free.

Trip, pegi Amsterdam, Mast tak join. Ni untuk guys sahaja. Anas pun join sekali. Ramai yang tanya kenapa Mast bagi Acap pegi Amsterdam. Eventhough Mast tahu niat diorang pegi sana & Acap ni agak nakal, tapi Mast trust him. Takpe la sesekali nak berseronok. Mast ni wife yang cool tak? Hehehe

Sape-sape yang nak datang holiday kat London, boleh lah singgah di teratak kami. Insya'Allahh kami akan layan anda sebagai family. Then, we can end up as a happy family.

-END-

YO! Sushi

2010-04-11T07:12:00.006+01:00

JOM MAKAN!!!

Acap kalo diajak makan, tak pernah cakap NO.
Mula-mula malas tapi bila nak balik rumah, baru nak ajak makan lagi.
Semalam kami lunch di YO! Sushi at Centrale in Croydon. Kalo nak cuba, boleh la pegi.
YO! Sushi
House of Fraser
Centrale Shopping Centre
21 North End Rd
Croydon CR0 1TY
T: 0208 181 4495
Opening Hours
Mon - Tue: 12noon to 5.30pm
Wed: 12noon to 6pm
Thu: 12noon to 7.30pm
Fri - Sat: 12noon to 6pm
Sun: 12noon to 4pm
Last orders 1 hour before closing time

* sebelum pegi, boleh print voucher kt website ni:-

Mula-mula macam give up jugalah sebab kena beratur nak dapat seat.Tapi bila dah makan, tak ingat nak balik. Nasib baiklah Mast ada dan boleh control diet Acap. Kalo tak, mahu sampai sepuluh plates kami makan. Menu atas 'conveyer belt'tu memang menarik especially siapa yang suka makan raw salmon & kalo meat tu halal. Kami banyak order hot menu je:-
- Hairy Prawns 1 plate
- Prawn Katsu 3 plates
- Salmon Teriyaki 1 plate
- California Roll
- Prawn
- Dan beberapa plates yang tak ingat nama.
Total for the meals for two person is more than £30.00 (boleh beli handbag satu kat ALDO.

Lepas makan, YO! Sushi, kami plan nak makan desert kt tempat lain tapi Acap decided to take away Aunty Ants. So, we bought 3 seats (2 Almond & 1 Cinamon) - OMG we are FATCATS couple!!

Nak ditambahkan cerita lagi, before taking bus home, we went to Starbuck & bought a Caramel Frappuccino Coffee base (small glass) for Qina but somebody cut our turn & took our drink. As a compensation, the staff give us Large Glass Caramel Frappuccino for Free. HEHE..

So, moral of the day:-
- Makan jangan sampai membazir & berhenti sebelum terlalu kenyang.
- Berusaha cari makanan yang HALAL ditempat orang.
- Sentiasa bersabar dalam apa jua keadaan, Insy'Allah, ade ganjaran lain.

-END-

Patah Tumbuh Hilang Berganti

2010-04-09T23:37:00.005+01:00

Apakah dosa kami?
Kenapa kami diuji sedemikian?
Arrghhh sangat marah & sedih...
Kalaulah dapat budak hitam tu, rasa macam nak cincang-cincang je.
Takpelah, sabar je dgn ujian Allah & jangan salahkan Qdak & Qadar Allah & sekarang ni bukanlah mase untuk ber'kalau'.

On Monday, 29th March 2010, dua orang budak hitam telah pecah masuk rumah kami.
Untung jugalah hasil rompakan mereka pada hari itu.
Apa yang hilang?

1. Acap's SONY PS3 (including CD Games)
2. My 2 months SONY VAIO Laptop (Pink)
3. Acap's HP Laptop
4. My light blue SONY Camera
5. My scholl bag
6. Zakiah's FTEC Laptop
7. Qina's LG Pink Laptop
8. Qina's LG Pink mobile phone
9. Zaggy's SONY Camera

Nasib baiklah takde orang kat rumah mase kejadian. Yang hairannya, takde kesan pecah masuk langsung. Dan jiran sebelah nampak dua orang budak hitam keluar and lari dari pintu depan. Kejadian berlaku lebih kurang 4.45p.m.

Malam tu, Forensic datang buat siasatan tapi tak dapat apa-apa bukti.
Polis datang the next day untuk ambil statement. Hari tu semua orang datang ofis lambat. Agak kecoh jugalah satu ofis sebab the main issues is; we all are not covered by insurance. So, everything gone and cannot be replaced!!

Tapi takpe, PA&MA kan ade. Duit gaji bulan ni pun terpaksa dikorbankan juga. Nampak nya kena ikat perut la this month. Bukan bermakna tak makan tapi ikat perut tak boleh nak shopping handbag, kasut & baju....huhu...sedihnya.. Ade sape2 nak sponsor?

Sekarang ni dah ade yang baru
1. White SONY VAIO Laptop
2. Black Acer Laptop
3. Purple NIKON Camera

Excited sangat dapat camera baru ni. Tapi taklah excited sgt dpt WHITE SONY VAIO ni. Sekarang ni budget tgh constraint. My next aim are:-
1. SLR Camera
2. Pink Dell Laptop + Pink Wireless Mouse(yang kecik & ringan)
3. D&G Shoes for Acap
4. A designer handbag for myself (brand rahsia :))

Kesimpulannya, janganlah kita tangisi benda yang dah tak ada. Cepat-cepat lah cari pengganti & try to make yourself happy. Entah betul ke tak nasihat Mast ni. Bak kata Acap, main belasah je. Tapi, kata Mat, takpe yang penting confident.

Kalaulah Hati Tidak Mencinta...

2010-03-28T20:27:00.002+01:00

Bosannya tanpa teman hidup dihujung minggu.
Minggu lepas jumpa dia boleh dikatakan paling lama pun, tiga jam satu hari.
Minggu ni, tak akan jumpa dia langsung.
Minggu depan, tiada siapa yang tahu tapi kami tak rancang apa-apa untuk Easter holiday (hopefully, tak payah datang office).

Sakarang ini, terasa teramat lah penat dan sedih.
Macam rasa bila-bila masa boleh rebah.
Ya Allah, berikanlah aku kekuatan dan nikmat kesihatan.
Janganlah Engkau uji aku di saat-saat genting ini.
Engkau permudahkanlah segala pekerjaanku.
Engkau peliharalah orang-orang disekelilingku.

Selalu juga terfikir, macam mana orang boleh berumah tangga dan bertahan berpuluh-puluh tahun. Memang seronok, tapi agak meletihkan.
Rutin harian berubah seratus peratus selepas berkahwin.
Sekarang, sebelum ke pejabat kena siapkan sarapan si suami - dulu tak payah sarapan
Sekarang, sebelum ke ofis, kena kemas bilik, baju & buku - dulu kemas untuk sorangje
Sekarang, bila dah jadi senior di pejabat, hari-hari balik lambat - dulu 5.30pm terus balik
Sekarang, hari Sabtu kena keje - dulu weekend turun Dublin
Sekarang, bila weekend kena masak proper meal - dulu boleh makan biskut & milo je
Sekarang, bila study, kena make sure si suami tidak bosan - dulu boleh study nonstop

Bukan mengeluh tapi sekadar merenung tanggungjawab sekarang ini terlalu besar. Ini belum ade anak lagi. Kehidupan nanti akan lebih berubah. Adakah aku sudah bersedia untuk memperolehi cahaya mata? Rasanya aku masih belum mampu memikul tanggungjawab ini. Adakah jawapan ini lahir dari hati, akal, atau nafsu? Aku pun tidak tahu. Tapi yang pasti, aku takut gagal dalam kehidupan. Aku mahukan yang terbaik untuk semua terutamanya diri aku. Mungkin suatu hari nanti, akan lahirlah tanda ikatan cinta kami. Insya'allah. Kenapa aku boleh mencintainya? Mungkin cinta lahir dari hatiku.

"Hati!" tegur si dia.

"Ye, Cinta," aku sahut tegurannya.

"Pernah tak awak terfikir..." sambungnya, tiba-tiba berhenti.

"Terfikir apa?" aku menyoal, mengukir senyuman.

"Pasal nama kita..." mukanya berubah, termenung panjang.

"Pasal nama kita?" aku pun termenung, temani si dia.

"Tanpa Hati, tak wujud la Cinta, kan?"

Isi fikirannya tak dapat kutangkap.

"Maksud awak?" tenungan aku menjadi bingung.

"Hati tempat perasaan kita timbul, kan?" soal si dia, mencari pengesahan.

Aku mengangguk mengiyakan soalan.

"Dan cinta merupakan sebuah perasaan, kan?" ditanya pula, mencari jawapan.

Aku mengangguk lagi.

"Kalau macam tu..." raut wajahnya menjadi sayu. "Kalau awak takde, saya pun takde la."

"Cinta," kutegur setelah berfikir panjang."Kalau perasaan cinta tu takde, hati ni tak berguna la, kan?"

"Hhhhhmmmmmm........." panjang keluhannya sebelum tersenyum.

Tidaklah kita ketahui siapakah sebenarnya kita kasihi.

Kesusahan tetap akan melanda. Dugaan tetap akan diberikan.

God has created for you mates among yourselves, so you may have peace and contentment with each other, and He has put between you love and compassion; most surely there are signs for those who reflect.

Al-Rum, 21

Surely, in the body there is a small piece of flesh; if it is good, the whole body is good, and if it is corrupted, the whole body is corrupted, and that is surely the heart.

Bukhari

Introducing Flemmings & Ambassadors from Malaysia

2010-03-27T18:05:00.009Z

Flemmings not only as a firm of Chartered Accountant, but as Financial Advisers, Property Consultants and Wealth Managers.

The Partners at Flemmings are all Chartered Accountants and have themselves experienced excellent training both from their own family businesses and from their professional training. They strive to do their best in ensuring that each and every client is treated as an individual and that their business, professional and personal aspirations are successfully achieved.

Staff are required to work to tight budgets and deadlines and are given responsibility from a very early stage. Each individual staff must have honesty, integrity and objectivity values in their work & life.

The followings are the most dedicated staff / Malaysian Ambassadors in Flemmings :)
(bukan perasan but we always hope and aim for the best)

Mastura - Property Department
Qina - Tax Department
Zakiah - Accounting & Payroll Department

Khaliz - International Department
Raf - used to work with Flemmings in Financial Services Department

Unique about Flemmings
- Partners and staffs are working hand in hand
- We are required to develop good commercial awareness through training and by reading the financial press regularly.
- We have to attend internal training on one Saturday a month and are required to prepare for and make presentations at our internal training sessions.
- Everyday, we have to sign in 15 minutes earlier to warm up i.e. daily planning
- Everyday, lunch is provided by the firm and we will celebrate all festives together
- No social loafing, gossiping and answering moblie are allowed in the firm (while working hour)
- Time is so valuable, so we have to record our work progress for every 15 minutes
- Although this firm is based in London, no locals or British in our firm because they are not as good as us, MALAYSIAN :)

To join Flemmings is not easy. Flemmings will only choose high calibre team of staff through very stringent recruitment procedures.

Anybody who is interested and very keen to complete ICAEW and to qualify as a Chartered Accountant, you are most welcome to join Flemmings - silalah hantar CV anda :)

UK 2010 Budget By Darling at Flemmings

2010-03-24T21:08:00.004Z

Today was a very limited day to work. Out of 33 units, I spent:-
- 7 units meeting with Partners,
- 20 units watching UK 2010 Budget in training room
- 6 units to go through issues and problems in management account.

Due to time constraint, I ended up working until 7.00p.m.
- 4 units meeting with manager to finalise agreement with letting agents
- the remaining 6 units to assist my clients to purchase a new residential property (including appointing surveyor and solicitors)

To clarify further, everyday I have to work up to 33 units (8 hours), from 8.30a.m to 5.30a.m. However, by 8.15 a.m. everybody must be at the office (to on PC, tea & planning). By 8.30 sharp, head down and fingers start tapping on the keyboards. No gossiping, no social loafing and everybody focusing on their work. We have to record what we have done for every 15 minutes (equal to 1 unit). My office culture is very very straight. Most people think it is a crazy culture but, if we look at positive side, Flemmings is a good place for training.

Today, we have to watch UK Budget (live) and comments how does the new budget affect out department and clients. Tomorrow, we have to buy Financial Times and it need to be signed off by the Partners.

No lunch provided for today. Only brunch and fresh fruits for the day. Frankly speaking, I cannot accept today's food. I can't remember what does it called but its like; we are eating maruku+kerepek pisang and potato chopped with mango sos (mix everything together) - terus sakit kepala makan benda alah tu dan tak boleh nak fikir macam mane nak kira income tax. But the fruits were excellent (strawbery / honeydew / papaya / pineapple & plum).

Let's go through key points in today's budget

• 3p fuel duty rise to be phased in in three stages between April and January 2011 rather than in one go next month
• Cider duty to rise by 10% above inflation from midnight on Sunday
• Wine, beer and spirit duties to rise by 2% from midnight on Sunday and further 2% rise planned for two years from 2013
• Tobacco duty up 1% from midnight on Sunday and by 2% in real terms each year until 2014
• Stamp Duty scrapped for homes below £250,000 for first-time buyers, but only for two years
• Stamp duty on residential property sales over £1m to increase to 5% from April 2011
• Economy contracted 6% during the recession
• Predicted growth of 1% to 1.25% in 2010, in line with forecasts
• 2011 growth forecast lowered from 3.5% to 3-3.5%
• Borrowing this year forecast to be £167bn - £11bn lower than predicted in December
• Borrowing to fall from £163bn in 2010-11 to £74bn by 2014-15
• Public sector net debt to reach 54% of gross domestic product this year, increasing to 75% in 2014/15.
• £2.5bn package for small business to boost skills and innovation
• One year business rate cut from October to help 500,000 companies
• Investment allowance for small firms doubled to £100,000
• Doubling relief on capital gains tax for entrepreneurs but no change to capital gains tax rates
• £385m to maintain road network
• Canals body British Waterways to become charitable trust not sold off
• One-off bank bonus tax has raised £2bn, double the amount forecast
• Basic bank account guarantee for a million extra people
• RBS and Lloyds Bank Group to provide £94bn in small business loans
• Backs tax on bank transactions but on global basis
• New service to adjudicate credit disputes
• Six month work or training guarantee for under 24s extended to 2012
• Amount of time over-65s must work to receive work credits reduced
• Tax allowances for those on over £100,000 gradually removed. No changes to allowances for everyone else.
• Annual limits on Individual Savings Acounts (ISAs) will rise from £7,200 to £10,200 next month.
• No changes to VAT or income tax planned
• Inheritance tax threshold frozen for four years
• Clampdown on tax avoidance to raise £500m
• New tax agreements with Belize, Grenada and Dominica
• On track to achieve £11bn efficiency savings target by 2012-3
• Reform of housing benefit to save £250m
• 15,000 civil servants to be relocated outside London
• £2bn investment bank to back low-carbon industries such as offshore wind. Government to provide £1bn through asset sales
• Funding for 20,000 new university places in science and maths but institutions must make savings elsewhere
• £35m enterprise fund to help university-launched businesses
• Winter fuel allowance rates extended for further year
• £4 rise in child tax credit for parents with young children from 2012

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The Seven Habits of Highly Effective People

2010-03-20T10:00:00.006Z

I just bought this book online from Amazon. Macam tak sabar nk tunggu buku ni sampai. So boleh share dengan yang lain. Let's check the summary and why I found this book is interesting and must read.

The Seven Habits of Highly Effective People, first published in 1989, is a self-help book written by Stephen R. Covey. It has sold over 15 million copies in 38 languages since first publication, which was marked by the release of a 15th anniversary edition in 2004. Covey argues that effectiveness is achieved by aligning oneself to what he calls "true north" principles of a character ethic that he believes to be universal and timeless.

The chapters are dedicated to each of the habits, which are represented by the following imperatives:
Habit 1: Be Proactive: Principles of Personal Choice
Habit 2: Begin with the End in Mind: Principles of Personal Vision
Habit 3: Put First Things First: Principles of Integrity & Execution

Independence to Interdependence
Habit 4: Think Win/Win: Principles of Mutual Benefit
Habit 5: Seek First to Understand, Then to be Understood: Principles of Mutual Understanding
Habit 6: Synergize: Principles of Creative Cooperation

Continual Improvement
Habit 7: Sharpen the Saw: Principles of Balanced Self-Renewal of body

Once I finish reading this book, I will share the contents and my personal comments.

Enjoy!
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Amarah Yang Terkalah

2010-03-19T20:13:00.003Z

Yesterday (Thursday), was a stressful day! Why?? Let’s me list out the reasons. For details story, mak je yang tahu & faham dgn perangai anaknye ni 
1. Office & Outsourcing team
2. Nasi vs Burger
3. Pistachio & Almond vs Chesnutt
4. Post to Malaysia
Memang sangat disappointing, depressing and everything – semuanya perasaan yang datang dari Syaitan. Masa tu, perasaan marah memang dah membuak-buak and tak tahu nak kata ape tapi tak boleh nak marah. So, I just keep quiet and non-stop eating crisp, chocolate and mango. Suddenly macam ade satu bisikan yang menyeru kepada sesuatu.

Then, I straight away went to washroom, take wuduk , perform Asar, recite Al-Mathurat and translation, recite Yassin & translation, continue with Maghrib and recite An-Nisa’ & translation – ingat nak tunggu Isya’ tapi dah ade panggilan untuk dinner.

Apa yang Mast nak share kat sini ialah betapa insaf, kagum dan sejuk hati bila baca terjemahan ayat-ayat Mathurat tu. Perasaan marah terus lenyap dan boleh tersenyum sepanjang masa. Biasanya bila baca hari-hari tak rasa apa-apa – asyik kejar nak cepat habis je. So sesekali tu baca la terjemahan ayat-ayat yang terkandung dalam al-Mathurat dan jadikan amalan harian. It doesn’t constraint long time kalo baca dengan hati yang ikhlas.

Here, I have done a research, and would like to share with the readers untuk dijadikan penghayatan, pengajaran dan amalan.
PENGERTIAN DAN KEUTAMAAN AL-MA'THURAT

1. Al- Ma'thurat merupakan wirid dan doa harian yang diamalkan oleh Rasulullah SAW. Baginda adalah orang yang paling mengetahui betapa besarnya ganjaran yang diperolehi dari amalan doa dan wirid tersebut...

2. Wirid, doa, zikir dan istighfar dalam Al- Ma'thurat ini akan memantapkan jiwa di samping memiliki keutamaan dalam segala aspek kehidupan. Mendidik hati agar sentiasa merindui kepada Ilahi dan memberi kelapangan hidup dan kesihatan jasmani...

3. Bagi seorang muslim masanya tidak berlalu begitu saja. Dikala pagi dan petang ia sentiasa bertasbih, istighfar, tahmid dan berdoa kepada Allah dengan zikir yang ma'thur ( yg berasal daripada Nabi SAW )...

4. Jika sesiapa mengamalkan zikir Al- Ma'thurat ini akan merasakan perbezaannya dengan hari2 yang tidak dimulakan dengan zikir Al- Ma'thurat. Begitulah kekuatan doa2 dan wirid dalam Al- Ma'thurat ini sebagai senjata mukmin...

Kelebihan membaca Al Mathurat:
1. Tidak dihampiri syaitan
2. Rumah dan keluarganya terselemat dari perkara yang tidak diingini.
3. Allah mencukupkannya apa yang sangat diperlukan dari urusan dunia dan akhirat.
4. Orang yang membacanya kemudian dia mati pada hari atau malam tersebut maka Allah akan menjamin untuknya syurga.
5. Selamat dari segala sesuatu.
6. Allah menyempurnakan nikmatnya ke atas orang yang membacanya.
7. Allah berhak untuk meredhainya
8. Tidak ada sesuatu yang mendatangkan mudarat ke atasnya.
9. Terhindar daripada syirik.
10. Selamat dari bisa atau sengatan semua makhluk yang beracun.
11. Dimudahkan menyelesaikan hutang-hutang.
12. Berhak untuk mendapat syafaat pada hari kiamat.
13. Sesiapa yang membaca di waktu pagi,akan dipelihara oleh allah hingga ke waktu petang.Dan sesiapa yang membacanya di waktu petang akan dipelihara hingga ke waktu pagi.
14.Mengamalkannya umpama mengamalkan Sunnah Rasulullah dari sudut zikir dan berdoa, dan berbagai lagi kelebihan.

Selamat Beramal
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Contest: You & Me - Love Forever

2010-03-14T11:45:00.004Z

My starting point to activate my blog and my first time join contest..

Orang gedik nak buat contest, kite pun gedik jugak la nak join contest..

Ni gambar with my hubby..takde la rapat sgt gambar tu, katenye xnak PDA & malu nak letak gamabar yg terlebih mesra..
But to me kemesraan & kasih sayang come from his renungan mata & my balasan senyuman..hehe

Anyway, happy anniversary buat Siti & Husband.. May you lovely moment with family forever.. Isya'Allah

Let's start it again!!

2010-03-14T09:33:00.002Z

Helloo...welcome back MASTURA MOKHTAR!
Now, I'm here with a new status..No longer Miss MOKHTAR!
Now I am Mrs Ashraf (but I am still introducing myself as Miss Mokhtar - sorry Mr Ashraf, dah terbiasa la)

Initially, this blog is not for publish.. it just for my online diary, nobody can view it - mase zaman sorang2 dulu terlebih emo especially bile xde sape2 around kite.
Now, its a time to share - happiness of life, work experiance, travelling, networking and ape2 je la.

Actually, nothing much to say for this entry..

Plan for the day:-
- Basuh & sidai baju
- Solat Dhuna & Al Waqiah
- Iron baju utk seminggu
- Change duvet cover & curtain
- Reserach for property market
- Edit photos for my quarterly report
- Revising about Profit for Unrelaised Profit (PURP)
- Lunch at Dosai Chutney with my hubby - nan & curry
- Waiting for my online groceries & organise them
- Update personal account & cashflow
- Helping my hubby planning for his Eorupe trip
- One movie for the day
- Reading financial time & utusan - update pasal UK election

Have a lovely weekend everyone.. Hopefully everyday will be a good day and tomorrow will be better than yesterday.

He Him Acap Aboy Abang

2009-11-28T19:18:00.000Z

After knowing him for almost 7 years, what can I say about him?

He will always be amongst a group of people and, more often than not, he will be the center of attention. He is not the one to waste his charm in empty air; there will always be an audience admiring him – yes, I’m jealous!
His personality traits include generous doses of chivalry, courtesy, gallantry, care and warmth.

He needs the constant love and attention given by a lover – thats me! He is extremely possessive of his loved one – Kalo kita tak available for him, rajuknya susah nk pujuk. Never mind, as far as I am concerned, I belong to him and him only.

He is extremely generous while courting – sebut je, confirm dapat..hehehe. I will think that I have fallen in love with the most amiable person in the world.

He can get very jealous, very easily! Even a playful look at another man will send his jealousy meter to the topmost point – Betul tak? Tapi confirm dia tak mengaku

Discipline??? Worst!! – I need to pamper him all the times. His vanity may at times come in the way, but then, I will have to subdue it with love, care and my own stability.

He is generous in all respects - love, money, care and everything I want. I will be showered with attention and compliments every now and then - thanks sayang

He will also remain faithful to me, though he may look at the pretty faces every now and then – Insya’Allah, I won't take that too seriously and leave him. Biasala, lelaki, katanya rezeki! Kalo tak pandang, katanya rugi

He may not be very good with finances and this is where I will be required to provide some stability – I need to be his financial adviser, not controller

He has a very bad temper and it will be displayed when I show him disrespect or indifference. Then, he can turn hotter than a burning furnace – so, I will cry the whole day & night

Overall, he has a very cool demeanour - wonderful, warm and loving partner.

I love him and thank you for loving me saying..ALM&MLA

Me Mast Myself

2009-11-26T19:34:00.000Z

I am full of womanly charms and at the very first glance.

I will look like the girl every guy falls in love with – bukan perasan tapi memang mcm tu kot..hehehe

I look totally vulnerable, very different from the modern, liberated girl of today. Almost every guy feels like taking me in his arms and protecting me from the big bad world – dia kata macam tu lah but I choose to be with him. Who?

I want him to love me, protect me and take good care of me - I will lean on him completely, showing full confidence in his strength and abilities - I know this is not good but I just cannot resist myself from loving him.

I always be a patient listener - you can share all your secret dreams, desires and hopes. Nabil, you should admit it

I am totally feminine, in all the seasons and at all the places - I don't have a single masculine streak in..hehehe

I just like all the other women and I have a bad temper too. In my fury, I can turn bitterly sarcastic - The consolation here is that I am gentle for more periods, than nudging and prodding. But don’t worry majority of the time, I will be yielding, wistful and all womanly. My scathing tongue will become loose once in a while only..hehehe

I have certain subtleness around myself and may also become a little deceptive at times – I’m not mean; it's just that I feel like keeping certain things to myself only.

I think, I am very sentimental and even slightly harsh words can cause me to cry hours at end - His high tune voice can really hurt my feelings.

Almost of the times I quite shy, emotional and vulnerable – Perasan!! Tapi betul lah!!

I believe I am a true romantic and secretly yearn for a person who will love me, cuddle me, hug me and make me feel loved and protected – Is it true? Let’s ask him.

I may not be good with finances, but will manage to save money if the situation so desires – I love online shopping.

I will remember the smallest incidents of my life - so you better remember my birthday & whatever important date especially our anniversary. If not, saya merajuk la!

I may become dreamy once in a while – saje-saje je sekadar memenuhi mase lapang

I want to be one of those women who can stand behind their husbands and support them in every way they can – not yet but I wish I can be like this after this coming January 2010. I wish will never try to dominate my future husband – Insya’Allah